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Chapter 7

Everyone was silent. Then after 5 minutes of complete darkness, a spotlight appeared in the centra of the stage. No one was underneath the light but then Brendon walked under it and bowed his head. Still everyone was quiet. Then another light appeared to the right of Brendon: Ryan. He also had his head bowed. Another light to the left of Brendon was Jon with his head bowed. After 3 minutes of silence and near darkness a drum roll is made and a magenta light shows up Spencer. He had a huge grin on his face.

1, 2, 3... GOOOOOO!!!!!

All the lights turned neutral and Brendon punched his arm up as though to hit something. He snatched the mic from the stand and started to sing like never before. Spencer drummed 3times as loud as usual, Ryan looked as cute as ever. The crowd went WILD!! Me, Chloe and Robyn screamed our hearts out. We had our 'We <3 u Panic!!' posters ready for the show. We screamed that loud that ryan looked at us in the crowd and we could hear him giggle on his mic whenever he got too close.

Brendon saw that ryan was lookin at us and then he winked lookin down in the crowd. Chloe and I nearly melted. Chloe melted that much she fell over tryin to get closer to the stage. Brendon saw her go flying and burst out laughing. I think he was just thankful it was at the instrumental part. Chloe got up and smiled around as if she was tryin to see the person that had fallen over. she just gave aeveryone a 'it wasn't me look, omg who has just fallen over.' The chorus soon came back for Brendon to sing but he found it hard as he couldn't stop smiling. He tried so hard to keep his laughter in. Ryan missed it when he was playing his solo guitar part. When he went back to his place on stage he looked at Brendon as though he was an alien or said something REALLY strange. The song came to an end and the lights went dim again. Everyone cheered like mad. And after 2 minutes of more complete darkness a spotlight appaeared and Brendon proudly bowed to the audience.  

Chapter 6

The clock was ticking it felt like forever!! 6:55. we had 5 minutes to wait. Chloe and Robyn were running around like headless chickens to make sure they looked perfect. They looked pretty already - "but not enough for brendon and ryan omg omg"

in the end they got that chaotic, me and Halyey practically had to tie them down to a chair. two minutes later we saw a limo pull up outside. we jumped up screaming. we all ran to the door. The chauffeur got out of the car and opened the door. There we saw Brendon and Ryan perfectly dressed with THEE coolest shades. Brendon rolled them down his nose and winked at us. Me and chloe stood there rooted our hearts melting. Then ryan took his completely off and shouted for us to get in! We all climbed in. Ryan asked me to sit next to him. Chloe sat in the middle of me and Brendon, Becky and Hayley sat next to spencer and Jon asking them if they had seen Fall Out Boy and Robyn sat on the other side of ryan giving me a dirty look as if to ay 'BACK off'. i smiled i didn't know what to do. Robyn knew i liked Brendon. It was then i was getting a bit jealous of Robyn and Chloe. i know chloe like him as well but NO!! It was a bit wierd. Robyn likes Ryan, Chloe likes Brendon, I like Brendon but everything was going wrong!

Ryan and Spencer like me

Brendon likes Robyn

Jon likes Chloe

This was not supposed to happen!!! Everyone was looking at the wrong people! We got to the party without any fights. i knew one was going to kick off. We were all dirty looking one another. The chauffeur opened our door, Ryan offered me his arm but i decided to take Brendon's. Brendon was a bit confused and so was Ryan. He looked at me a bit sad but was soon cherred up as Robyn took his arm faster than he could blink. As soon as Becky and Hayley saw FOB they jumped out of the car - sending the driver flying into the car. Panic at the disco walked in with us, pete and patrick had no choice. We walked in altogether. Panic showed us around and got us drinks but they were performing soon so had to go off and get ready. Their manager already didn't approve of them picking us up but he didn't have a choice either.

We mingled a bit talking to other bands. I met the Red jumpsuit apparatus who also performed who were AWESOME!! Becky found Switchfoot which not suprisingly took not very long. Hayley managed to spot the leadsinger from KoRn so talked to him. Robyn followed Ryan into the dressing room but was soon kicked out. Chloe followed pete wentz for a bit before he went in his dressing room. although he was a bit wierded out by the way she kept fidgeting with his hair!

50 minutes after being at the party the lights went dark. There were a few sounds from people in the room, most people were wondering what was going on. I just waited. i knew it weren't a powercut because the lamposts outside were still on. Then it began...

Chapter 5

Chapter 4

Omg! now what am i going to do. I need to go to see panic at the disco but how can i not say goodbye to lyndon. I need answers people!!

All that day, i could not stop thinking of what to do. i loved Lyndon but how could he do this to me? how could he fly off to Spain without a care in the world? i need him here now. I know i have to come to terms with it - there's nothing i can do.

then i had an idea. i wanted to see both of them so i could just leave the concert early.

The 14th April came round. We all had our tickets for the gig and was all excited. Becky's mum gave us all a lift so we were all together from the start. We all got the 'I love u Brendon/Ryan/Spencer' posters from te back and went in. The show was awesome. It finished and everyone piled out of the arena like ants. Me, Becky and Hayley all had to drag Robyn and Chloe away from the stage because they were trying to catch a last glimpse of ryan and Brendon.

"Come on Robyn we have to go!!" :me

"Chloe you'll see them again - they'll do other tours" :Bex

"They've gone you can see that!" :Hayley

We finally managed it away from the stage when we heard shouts from behind us. It sounded like... PANIC AT THE DISCO!! We turned around and there was Ryan, brendon and Spencer stood infront of the stage. They looked straight at us and called us over. Then from the side we heard Jon's voice laughing and Pete Wentz's voice giggling. Then Jon flew out and landed on the floor. He clutched his head and got up ready to run back and get Pete.

"Pete! Am gonna get you for that" :Jon

"Yea right when ya big enough" :Pete :"oh we have company! Get up Jon u wimp"

He kicked jon who was still on the floor and started to alk over us. All of us just stood there. We were in pure shock that they were talking to us. It's not everyday your icons are stood there talking to you.

Pete went over to Brendon a bit unsure of us as none of us were talking or moving.

"Do any of em speak?" :Pete

"I don't know. Hello... did you enjoy the show?" :Brendon

"HELL YEA!! you guys rocked!!!" :Robyn

Her face lit up even more and she ran over to Ryan. She threw her arms round him which sent him flying backwards.

"Excuse me... EXCUSE ME!!" :Ryan

"Oops sorry =D" :Robyn.

I ran up to her to get her off him but all she could do was stare at him, which i noticed kinda freaked him out. On the other hand i noticed that he wouldn't stop looking at me. All i did was smile at him, i didnt know what else to do. I think Brendon noticed as well.

"Anyway, never mind robyn we've had worse done to us- Believe!!" :Brendon

Robyn giggled and called the others that still hadn't moved. At least by now they had closed their mouths. we were shown the way to Panic's tour bus which was awesome. Patrick from fall out boy was already there. As pete sat down Becky and Hayley rushed over next to them. They were more of Fall out boy fans than panic, thats how we got them here by sayin fob would be there.

Ryan sat down but still hadn't taken his eyes off me ever since Robyn had nearly sent him flying. brendon noticed again and knocked him with his arm to break the eye contact. Chloe had text all our mums to let us know where we were and NOT to come pick us up until we phoned them. Spencer came in not long after us and told me to shift over on the couch. considering it was only a small couch we all fit on it just nicely. Robyn wasn't too happy that i was sat next to Ryan. but the only person seperating her from ryan was Brendon who like ryan with me, couldn't stop staring at her.

 We got talking until someone asked what the time was. i looked at my watch - 00:5. S**T!!

I got up and fell on the floor landing straight on my knees. the pain shot up to what seemed to be my heart. tears flooded down my face. How did i forget. My only chance of stopping him - gone just like that all because of this stupid concert. Robyn bent down next to me. She was the only one i had told. She put her arms round n i just leant on her shoulder and cried. becky was already on the phone to our mums to pick us up.

Lyndon's pov

How could she have forgotten. I've known her for like... AGES! i know she loves me as she screamed it at me. i mean all the more reason to see me. I think its cuz she thinks its my fault. i tried to stop my mum but she didn't listen. I don't wanna go as much as rialle doesn't want me to go, but i have to go. but that's still no excuse. How can anything be more important that would make her forget? I've been her friend for years. i can't believe shes dont this to me. i mean...

I Love Her Too...

chapter 3

I woke up myself whispering Ryan. mum was banging at the door at this point just to make extra sure i was up and awake. I got dressed and knocked over the kerrang magazine. It was all the adverts for Panic at the disco's concerts. I grabbed a pen and wrote the dates on my hand. As son as i got to school i ran up to Robyn, Becky and Chloe. i ran that fast up to them they didn't see me so i nearly got bashed in the face when Robyn opened her locker!

"omg omg omg omg omg" i yelled trying to catch my breath back.

"what what?!"

"panic are the disco are touring!! HERE!!!!!!! we HAVE to go!" :me

"i might not be allowed, i'm grounded again" ¬.¬ :chloe

"well, it's not for another month anyway which means we can try and get some money together for the tickets. I'll ask hayley later if she can come." :me

"have u even asked ur mum yet?" :robyn

"Errr... no!" :me

"don't you think it would be better if we asked our mums first?!": Becky

"NO! even if my mum says i can't go I AM GOING" :me

i walked off in a huff and a bit puzzled. how could anyone throw away the chance of seeing panic at the disco?! thats it they've finally lost their marbles. BANG! Oops. i had just walked into Lyndon. I looked up from the floor into his face. But before i made it away he grabbed me on the arm and pulled my face so i was facing him.

"look Lyndon..."

"Look Rialle i didn't know"

"Well now you do so can you let me go please i have to get to class"

"Rialle, we have half an hour till class"

"Oh - well i need to be somewhere."

"Yea anywhere but here you mean"

"Something like that. Now let go"

"I just wanna let you know, I leave on 14th April, for Spain"

"yea i know where you going you don't need to remind me!" As I walked a way I looked on my hand at the dates of the concert - 14th April. Oops! I turned around to see if Lyndon was still there but i must have walked off pretty quick.

chapter 2

I knew that this wasn't one of those moves that was down the street. he still had me by the arms and tears began to fill up his face. i looked down. looking at his face became unbearable. He knew he had to tell me at some point. a soft whisper came from under his breath - "spain..."

I froze - SPAIN?! why would anyone in their right mind want to go to Spain? He let go; a littleconfused of the reaction i had given out. I didn't give off a reaction which probably came as more of a surprise. But what did he want me to do? Then i remembered - i needed to go do something.

I made my way home as a big thunder cloud rolled in over my head. Great just what i needed. Two minutes later the rain comes crashing down. the raindrops landed on my face and rolled down as tears. after five minutes after walkin so slow an umberella appears over my head. i turn around to see who it was. All i saw was Tylor with a smile on his face. I said thanks pulling my coat tighter. I knew he liked me but i knew who i loved and right now my head was too messed to even think of anyone else.

I went in and went straight to my room. I signed in on msn. Lyndon wasn't on which was probably for the best. My best friend was on tho. Robyn i know i can talk to her about anything and unlike some people she keeps her mouth shut.

"hiya robyn wat u up 2?"

"nowt much hows u?"

"av been better but still gd"

"y what's up?"

"omg robyn Lyndon is moving to spain! i can't deal witht that you know how much i love him!"

"Why is he moving there. It's kinda along way away from here don't ya think?! Look i gotta go but i'll talk 2 ya later yea?"

As Robyn went offline all i was left with was randomers. Just as i went for the sign off button Tylor came on. Before i got anywhere a conversation box appeared. i just ended the conversation quick and signed off. I seriously could not handle talking to anyone right now.

The alarm went off and i climbed out of bed. I swear that alarm ain't gonna last long i hate it! anyway i made my way to school and was greeted by both Tylor and Josh. Josh is another of my friends. some people have said he likes me but I personally don't think so. All i know is Tylor and Josh do NOT get along. I walked straight past them and saw Lyndon. I kept my head down. He is the last perosn i wanna see right now. He stopped me and gently grabbed me by the arm. I stood there looking into his deep brown eyes although the pain shot deep into my heart. I stormed off bowing my head to try and wipe the tears off from rolling down my face.

I tried to avoid him all day but it was no use. Just after the home bell rang he ran after me when i was walking home.

"Hello... Why are you avoiding me? Ever since i told you am moving you ain't spoke to me"

"Why dya fink? Why dya think i've been tryin to avoid you. You clearly don't have a clue do ya?"

"Clue about what?"

"I BLOODY LOVE YOU!!!"

"oh"

I looked at him as though he was really stupid and stormed off in a huff. I knew he was watching me but i decided strongly not to turn around. On the way home i noticed a poster off this really HOTT band with PANIC! At The Disco all over it. I ent in and decided to buy myself a treat. I think i deserve one! I bought the kerrang magazine and stick up ALL the posters. my mum doesnt like them but when it's these guys I DONT CARE! i turn on the radio and on comes panic! At The Disco. The title was really long but it had to be one of the best songs i have EVER heard. Then i asked Becky if i could borrow the CD.

I could not stop listen to it. i made at least 3 copies in case one of them broke. i put it on my mp3 my computer everywhere i could think of. I just lied there on my bedroom floor staring up at their poster. I lied there for ages falling asleep listening to the music. then i see Brendon Urie on a stage infront of me singin my favourite song - "Build God Then We'll Talk" He took me by the hand but i prefered the guitarist.I walked over to him and watched him play. He rocked!!! He was the only one i couldn't remember the name of. i asked him "what is your name" and just as the alarm went off AGAIN! i heard a softer whisper "ryan..."